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[Friday
May 26th, 04:47 pm] |
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God, I am not having a good fucking week. Shit just keeps going wrong left and fucking right.
Atleast I've learned to never trust anyone, ever. My own fucking friends talk shit about me and cause a ton of fucking problems. Fuck them. Fuck everything.
I am not looking forward to anything right now. I think I'm going to spend the weekend at my grandmas up in the boonies and get the fuck away from everything.
I basically fucking HATE everyone/everything.
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[Wednesday
May 24th, 06:05 pm] |
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I hate livejournal.
This shit is so fucking immature.
I don't know. I can't even fucking...say anything without offending someone. I think I'm going to A) delete this one and never write again, OR b) make a completely private one.
God I just fucking hate....drama.
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[Tuesday
May 23rd, 03:37 pm] |
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My body is being fucking ridiculous. I now almost refer to it as a different person because its so fucking NEEDY, STUBBORN AND SELFISH. For fucksake. I've been eating good and shit, really- I have. And that does NOTHING. My stomach just keeps freaking the fuck out. I just want to sleep and not be here. It's making me so stressed out because like, I dunno, its just so fucking frustrating. I can't hold a fucking job, I'm never in school, I never want to do anything with Dave and my friends...I just...can't even enjoy life. I'm so fucking sick of it.
We had MCAS today. Fuck MCAS. I don't care. My stomach was growling like fucking nuts the whole time and hurt so bad, this kid behind me most likely thought I was ripping asshole every 5 seconds but I just couldnt get my stomach to SHUT THE FUCK UP.
OHKAY ITS TIME FOR A FUCKING CIGARETTE. FUCKING LORD.
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[Sunday
May 21st, 04:57 pm] |
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The show was absolutely amazing. Most deffinitely better than prom could ever be.
Colin gave me the mic a few times. Ah, god, "Kiss Me Goodbye" was so good, and then they did the breakdown and everyone just FLIPPED OUT. Of course, I was the only girl actually into it with a bunch of twentysomething dudes. I chilled with them after the show, and Mike was like "Dude you're the girl that missed prom to see us? You're fucking amazing. We have a keg up in Rockdale, want to come with us?" and then he asked me to tour with them...I was like UM IM LIKE TWELVE. =[ Facck I love Colin of Arabia.
Cutthroat was pretty fucking amazing, too. Eva Braun was okay, nobody was really into them though.
So good.
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[Friday
May 19th, 12:00 pm] |
I'm back to the same miserable spot.
Hello Depression, haven't seen you in a while.
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[Friday
May 19th, 11:24 am] |
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I don't know. I know exactly what I want. But it's the problem of getting from point A to point B.
I don't even know if he cares about me. And thats what kills me. He says he does. But his choices prove him wrong. I love him to fucking death and back. But it's never enough.
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[Thursday
May 18th, 08:37 pm] |
Today was pretty good but dave and I got in a fight cause I saw a comment he left brianna sliwa and I flipped out. I'M FUCKING JEALOUS.
And I fucking shouldn't be.
But this is how it always starts.
Things are perfect.
Then one little problem arises
and I flip the fuck out
and completely ruin everything.
I wish I didn't do stuff like that. So bad. No, I wish I didn't ever do half the shit I do.
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[Wednesday
May 17th, 08:05 pm] |
O AND ALSO THIS WEEKEND:
GOING TO WESTERN MA
TO BE IN THE ACACIA STRAIN'S VIDEO.
=]
yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
I don't care who drives me there,
I'm going.
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[Wednesday
May 17th, 03:09 pm] |
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Aggh last night I threw up 3 times. Wicked not fun. I got to school at like 10:30 for tech ed, study and art. Haha I'm the master.
I'm so excited for this weekend! Friday night, movies with Dave, maybe chilling with j-burd and jake later, then saturday is the show!!!! then sunday me, dave, jessie and jake are gonna go to MOES!!!!! for our anniversaryyy<333 =] pretty much my 3 favorite people in the whole world...'tis gonna be a good time.
I want some quesidillas wicked bad.
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[Tuesday
May 16th, 03:09 pm] |
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School is going by ridiculously fast. I don't know, it always feels like the end of the day before I know it. Then I go home, play runescape, hang out with dave, go to sleep and do it all over again. I've been flipping out on my teachers A LOT lately. They're just pissing me off and I really need school to be over. Like right now. We get out JUNE TWENTY-FUCKING-SEVENTH. Fuck.
This sunday will be Dave and I's 8 month anniversary. =] feels like forever.
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[Monday
May 15th, 03:00 pm] |
Mothers day was not a success. We'll leave it at that.
I am so fucking tired.
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[Saturday
May 13th, 12:01 pm] |
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it dies today |
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Last night was absolutely wonderful. I LOVELOVELOVE going on dates with Dave. We walked around the mall, I got my mom and his mom presents, and then we saw Thank You For Smoking.
Best movie ever created. Whoever thought it up, is a fucking GENIOUS.
Then Jessie and Jake picked us up and we went to Applebee's. They're so cute to double date with because we all look like such fags cause Dave and Jake look the same haha and me and Jessie and just the gay girlfriends. It reminds me of that movie Seven Brides for Seven Brothers. =] we're so cute.
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[Thursday
May 11th, 03:40 pm] |
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Agghh I'm sooo tired.
I skipped detention for Connolly today.
She will rip me a new asshole. Trust me. I'm scared.
I want Daaaveeeyyy to come over nowww =[
I'm going to sleeep.
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[Wednesday
May 10th, 05:16 pm] |
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[Tuesday
May 9th, 07:00 pm] |
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That bitch wasn't even in school today. Oh well, she's not worth me not seeing Dave for a month. She can fuck herself, I don't care what she says about me.
Anywhoo. I actually have nothing else to say. Peace out.
Actually I do!!! I'm going to Seattle with Dave in july :D :D :D I am soooo excited! Gosh I love this boy<3333 Sososososooso mucchhh.
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[Monday
May 8th, 09:42 pm] |
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Today was so fucking funny.
I really can't elaborate because you'll get weirded out
but Dave makes me laugh so fucking hard.
....And then feel really bad =]
But he deserved it, cause I was in worse pain.
Anyways.
Theres probably going to be a fight tomorrow.
I'll probably be suspended.
Oh wellio.
It'll be fucking worth it.
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[Saturday
May 6th, 12:33 pm] |
O AND PS.
next time you go to mcdonadls,
order EXACTLY:
3 double cheeseburgers and a small coke.
you shan't be dissapointed.
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[Saturday
May 6th, 10:51 am] |
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see you next tuesday |
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Yesterday, me, Dave and John went to Kimballs. We did the bumper boats and fucking owned dave. We pinned him up against a waterfall so he got soaked. Ahh man that was fun.
Then we came to my place and watched Hostel. I couldn't even watch it. Once they slit his achilles tendons, I was done. Done. Done. Done. I was so freaked the fuck out that someone was going to slit mine, I stayed up until 3am and once I got to sleep, Bedard calls me at fucking FOUR IN THE FUCKING MORNING. To talk about...I don't even know what we talked about! Probably NOTHING. Thanks Bedard<3
Rollerkingdom tonight. Meh.
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[Friday
May 5th, 03:50 pm] |
Wow I hate Kommie so fucking much. I called to tell him I've been throwing up and can't work, and also that I'd like to give my notice. I was very nice about it, and said "I have been trying my hardest, it's just that I'm very sick and I don't think my hardest was good enough for you." and he just goes "No, you didn't try your hardest, but thats your life, do what you want, goodbye" and hung up on me.
He is probably THE biggest cunt I have ever met in my entire life.
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